currently crying

Im pathetic. my friends left me, my boyfriend left me. what else? seriously you guys changed. I know you guys have new lives, but why do I have the feelings that Im not part of it? why do I always felt left out? I barely hang out with you guys, and when I do, its like Im a total stranger for not understanding a word you guys are talking about. so called friends huh? Im sorry if I was being such a jerk, but atleast tell me where did I go wrong? do you know how hurt it is to be left out? err nevermind, its okay, continue with your new lives, I'll move on sooner or later. takecare, bye.