at school. I ran here and there. got stressed up with teachers and homeworks and studies and friends and stuff.

at home. I do the chores. when Im upstairs, the called me down. when Im downstairs, they ask me to go up. I got nagged for no doing my chores. I got nagged for the stuffs my siblings did. I got nagged for not studying, which Im very VERY fucked up because when I studied, they arent around to see me. so when they start nagging, they tend to say "all I see is you infront of the computer and TV. I dont see you studying."

I studied okay. you may not see it. and my results arent showing it either. Im stupid, I know. you dont have to tell me Im stupid. neither does my BELOVED principle whom I love so much. I tried to act as 'dont care' as possible. but Im a human being. Im not perfect. I cant do all the things you ask. I tried to. but I cant. dont put your expectation too high. 

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oh and for my dear deary classmates, schoolmates, mates etc, Im done being nice to all of you. I helped you even though you dont need helping. I lend my hands to you even though your hands are empty. but when my hands are full. I ask for your help, it doesnt kill to help back! Im not looking for repayment. I can do things by myself. but once a year when I ask for your help, does it kill you? or am I asking too much? oh bytheway, I dont like people too assume MY STUFF IS YOUR STUFF. if you want to borrow my stuff, ASK. then put it back where it belongs. and about my 'bekal' that my daddy sent. it is for ME. I dont mind sharing. but sometimes, would you atleast think about the owner of the food? I mean, you people ate the 'lauk' and left me the 'nasi kosong' -.-

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Im sorry, Im just soooooo fucked up. Im feeling a bit better now. 

hey peeps :)

just so you know, I've deactivated my Facebook account. now, Im more to Twitter and Tumblr. do follow! 

blog, update jugak tapi kalau post panjang panjang laa. kalau tak, I'll go to the double T :) kbyee

okay, I just stalked my boyfriend's ex girlfriend's Facebook. I know it's wrong in every situation. I meant, depa bukan contact dah kan? buat apa aku nak stalk? er tapi tah laa. terpikiaq macam macam ja. em biar la aku sengsara sorang sorang kan? nak habaq kat orang tak boleh. nak habaq kat dia pun, tak boleh jugak. so, lemme just cry alone in the corner. *sigh*

oh bytheway, I've deactivated my Facebook account. do contact me on Twitter (@sabbynina). but it's just temporary. Im just fucked up to see him with his friends and their girlfriends and his ex girlfriend. ughh, not their fault really. Im just the one being so damn emotional when tak ada sapa kacau me pun. psyco kan? 

oh shitty shit, I shouldnt be bothering about this!  have loads more things to think of. like say, SPM! huh. this past six months has been more to crying + depressing than smiling + having fun. ya Allah, help me please. Im trying to help myself, but nothing seems to work. -.-

hey there, sorry. I've been busy. school had started on Sunday. a day before, me and kawan kawan mama semua pegi mandi kat Salak Denai, plus Epi went back to Melaka with his dad. and 2 days before, Epi gave me a bear :)

pukul 6 macam tu, he asked sapa ada dekat rumah. I told la, daddy and adik adik. time tengah jalan nak p depan, nampak kereta dia. so, aku skodeng la dari dalam. nak keluar tak berani, takut daddy kata nak jumpa senyap senyap. lepastu, dia ambek satu kotak besar kat passenger's seat tu, letak depan rumah. then he texted 'I got something for you. tengok kat luar pagar'. actually before dia text lagi, elok dia belah, aku keluar p ambek. time nak tutup pintu tu, I accidentally dropped the box. so I texted, 'I dropped the box. hope there's nothing fragile inside'. he replied 'daymmm, my heart's in there!'. 

then bila dah bukak, rupanya ada seekor makhluk asing berkepala besar ! hahaha

okay, ignore the last part, he can be such a douche sometimes. hahaha.

Isnin pagi tu sampai Alor Star. malam tu, tidur rumah Nani. and esok tu kami p tengok wayang. me, her, her girlcuz, Epi and Naan. tengok Snow White and The Huntsman. before wayang, Cool Blog-ing, after wayang KFC-ing. esok tu nani balik KL. and this Saturday, epi balik Melaka. so, yes, Im pretty sad #tears

okay, while Im free. lemme tell bout my trip -.- *long sigh

petang selasa gerak lepas Maghrib. aku and nopi naik kereta Aunty Nana dengan dang and nen. yang lain dengan daddy. berhenti makan kat Tapah je kot -.- bythetime sampai PJ dah pukul 2am. I was like so mengantuk, sampai sampai terus tido. hahaha. tapi lepas daddy sampai, terpaksa bangun salin baju siapkan tempat tidur segalabagai. 

long story short, pagi tu pukul 9 or so, daddy mama nen dang and aunty nana pegi hospital tengok adik adik dang (yang tu nanti aku bagitau sapa sakit apa, ramai sangat). then balik by 3lebih macam tu. nen buat speghetti. lepas makan, pukul 5 centu gerak p rumah tokwan. sampai rumah tokwan MAKAN -.-

rabu: bangun tengah hari! sorang pun tak kejutkan. -.- then cuci muka gosok gigi, terus makan. tokmama daddy alongnat and mama kalut nak keluar. aku pun nak ikut. hahaha dengan tak mandi, salin baju, spray deodorant and perfume wangi wangi ikut! hahaha. first p Jakel, then SOGO, then Chow Kit, then errr macam macam tempat laa. keluar pukul 12 balik pukul 9. tokwan kata nasib baik dia tak ikut. haha malam tu buat cupcakes. alongnat buat red velvet cake yang tidak begitu menjadi. cupcakes siap dalam pukul 1, masuk bilik konon nak tidur last last tengok movie sampai pukul 5. 

khamis (tengahhari): again, aku bangun tengah hari tak ada sapa kejutkan -.- terus tolong bibik kat dapur. then mandi. then pukul 5 macam tu keluar dengan alongnat and uncle pijan p Paradigm Mall. jumpa daddy dengan meyan kat sana. balik dalam pukul 6 lebih. sampai rumah buat icing cupcakes, tolong tolong. then orang sampai. buat makan makan sikit. orang Janda Baik, orang Kedah semua datang. Mira pun datang. heeeee.. then karaokae sampai pukul 12.

okay, DONE! hahahaha kbyeeeee

Im in KL. and sooo sooooo bussyyy. will be updating blog later. byeee