Friday, March 22, 2013
this post is dedicated to my boyfriend, or ex. Im not exactly sure where we stand.
B, Imissyou by A LOT! I know you're busy with your exams. I sort of understand. I want you to succeed. but I also want our relationship to succeed. Im hanging by a thread here. I need you.
I know I've said this all the times but this time I meant it. I WANT TO CHANGE. and I need to. I'll try, in syaa Allah I'll change. gimme time. I also need your help.
I dont want our memories to fade away... I miss you. your laugh, your smile, your idiotic reaction to my stupidity, your hugs, your kisses, your 'leteran' *eventhough I sometimes hate it when you berleter*, hmm I miss your EVERYTHING b. | I miss every single thing about you. | this is by far the longest time spent w/out talking to you. I miss calling you before sleep and finally slept while texting. I miss checking my phone for you texts during work and replying it. now, it's just 'checking my phone'. no text from you whatsoever.
tadi awak text, I was over the moon. but as I open the text, it JUST says "congrats".
my heart broke into a million pieces. patah seribu hatiku. I ran into the fitting room and cried for like 5 minutes, and then walked out with a fake smile. | faking smiles had been a habit now. so does crying before sleep. I end up crying to sleep and woke up with a panda eyes and swollen face. *sigh* |
itew rindu awak sesangat B. CC pun rindu awak. tiap malam kami nangis. CC nak papa dia balik. :'(
I actually dont know who to react now. I miss you so badly. I dont want to annoy you. but I guess, memang duk annoy pun. hmm Im sorry.
B, iloveyousoveryverymuch. I never thought something like this would happen. I really thought you'd be my last. I really want you to be my last, probably my forever. tapi tu laa, kita mampu plan je, Allah yang tentukan.
Im going insane thinking about you everyday and night. thinking that you will probably wont come back and you'll find someone much much better than me. this scares me to hell B. I dont want this! nauzubillah~ :'(
sepetku, please come back and dont leave me again. I'll change to a better person, in syaa Allah. please :'( Im begging you here B. pleaseeee :'(
*long sigh* that's all I can say for now. Iloveyou SO MUCH, takecare.
satu masa bila aku biaq hang buat selama lamanya, hang akan tarik balik kata kata hang tadi. -Najmi Afif. 18.03.2013
trash talked @ 1:29 AM
»my SPM result :)
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Assalamualaikum wbt :)
okay sayang sayang baby baby mucuk mucuk macam sekalian, result SPM 2012 dah keluar.
*drum rolls* I got 5A's 2C's 2D's :)
A : science & englishA- : bm, seni & mathsC+ : agama & sejarahD : ekonomi & addmaths
Alhamdulillah, itu sahaja... it's not much. but it's seriously UNEXPECTED! :)
trash talked @ 2:00 PM
»keputusan SPM 2012
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
assalamualaikum wbt, annyeooonngg! :))
SPM dah selamat dijalankan pada 2012. esok, RESULT keluar!! ya Allah, ketaq taktau nak habaq! 2 3 hari sebelum tak rasa lagi kehangatan dia. harini baru rasa. ketaq bukan sebab apa. ketaq takut ada yang fail. hmm tak banyak A aku tak kisah sangat. kalau boleh nak B semua pun kira okay la. then ada C sikit sikit takpa. please no D's. :(
ya Allah ya Allah ya Allah! takut. hmm takut sangat :( takpaaa, exam buat buat dah. tak boleh nak kata apa, tawakal ja la yang mampu. betul dak? okayyy. *sigh*
tuu jaa nak luahkan kat sini. lama tak berbelog. maybe lepas ni akan berbelog balik, in syaa Allah. *amin*
trash talked @ 12:00 PM
»I is sad. VERY!
Monday, March 11, 2013
hey peeps. Assalamualaikum and anyeoongg :)
I started working about 2 months ago. at first okay la. tapi lama lama, macam sedih je. cuti sehari ja, kerja 6 hari seminggu. kalau tidak dulu cuti hari sabtu, now tukar isnin. hmm dih dih. dah la tuu, aku probably kerja sampai bulan 6 or 8. this is more sad! the saddest part is aku dah jarang onling, hanging out with friends and family. the saddest of the saddest part is kalau mintak cuti, TOLAK GAJI!!!
gila la macam ni punya sedih. hm hmm. aku kerja sebab nak duit, nak spend duit. tapi... duit aku habis tang makan ja. then beli barang keperluan sikit sikit. dah jarang dah nak mintak duit kat parents. unless kalau duit aku dah habis. tu pun dapat gaji aku bayar balik and bagi sikit duit kat daddy. daddy kan tak kerja, it's the least I can do lepas dia tolong hantar p balik kerja apa semua. mama pulak aku tolong dengan kemas rumah.
haaa, ni aku nak bebai sat. dah la rumah ni aku dengan mama ja yang kemas. aku cuti sehari ja. mama cuti jumaat sabtu. aku rasa macam lepas aku kemas pun tak ada effect. hmm. sedih aa. aku bukannya rajin sangat. tapi aku balik kerja lewat. adik adik aku ni pun sila la faham. hm.
duit aku sekarang tengah save nak beli phone baru. tapi nampak gaya macam lambat lagi ja. nak beli tu nak beli ni. tu tak kira duit yang nak spend enjoy dgn kawan kawan or family. ishhhh! nak teriaknya!
hmm sorry kerana membebai kat sini. eehhh wait, Im not sorry, I take it back. this is my blog. suka hati laki bini mak datin aku punya hati la aku nak buat apa pun.
trash talked @ 11:01 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
hai, Assalamualaikum, annyeongg!
Happy New Year!
I think I may be 15 days late to wish that am I? hahaha anywayyy... Im officially school-less and kinda jobless. hehehe. actually I start working tomorrow morning.
I have nothing to say at this point. byee
trash talked @ 12:19 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Assalammualaikum, salam sejahtera and anyeongg!!!
Lamanya tak berbelog. Bersarang habis. Tikus lipas spider. Ee yuuckkks! Hahahha
Anywayyy, Im done with SPM. Which means, Im done with school! Yeah babehhh, that’s right. No more teachers, no more prefects, no more homework. Masuk U, lain cerita. But to tell you the truth, bosan woi duk rumah -.- dah la paper last aku 6 Dec. Daddy and adik adik dah bertolak ke KL seminggu awal. Im left alone with mama. Seminggu lebih jugak my BFF, Nurdinah Nellisha @ Nelly duk rumah aku. Meneman. Haha. Anak angkat mama dah. Mama nel sampai nak saman kami sebab curi nel. Hahaha. Isnin malam haritu kami kerja dekat Giant, kira stok. 9pm sampai 9am. Besssttt! First time bekerja. Haha. Semalam tu je laa. Awal bulan 1 nanti baru kerja tetap maybe. Sebab this year still penuh, dengan budak PMR lagi.
Aiee, tu baru pembuka kata. Harini nak menulis tentang Wan Chempaka Raesha binti Wan Muzaffar. Siapa dia? She’s the new addition to Datuk Wan Mohd Hanafiah’s grandchildren. She’s the 12th.
Eee takkan tak comel Baby Raesha itew? Aummm... the last time we all had a baby is when Arisa was born. That was 5 years ago. Now, itew semua ada Baby Raesha and Arisa is no longer the youngest. Wan Chempaka Raesha @ Baby Raesha is Aishu and Makshu’s first born. They got married last year, remember? Baby Raesha was born on 12.12.12 @ 5.21pm.
Maybe petang nanti or esok pagi daddy gerak balik Alor Setar, then esok malam mama and I wil gerak to Kuala Lumpuoqq. Hahaha. Yayerrrss! *takkan tak ada sapa sapa nak tumpang gembira kott?* hahaha
Oh yes, Epi pun dapat cousin baru jugak. Zara Alesya. Born on the same day as Baby Raesha. Cuma Baby Zara tua berapa jam sikit ja. Heee...
And and, my cat, Garfield pun gave birth to 4 little kittens. On the same day too. The kittens are older than the babies. Hahahaha.
Okay, tu jaa. Will update for more, later. Bye byeee!
trash talked @ 2:35 PM
Monday, November 19, 2012
Hi and Assalamualaikum :)
Im still not done with SPM. 3 and a half papers to go. Addmaths 1 and 2, Science 1 and 2, Seni 2, and Ekonomi Asas 1 and 2.
I am actually here sebab I nak balik KL lepas exammm!!! my momma and daddy wont let me! :( macam macam sebab depa bagi. tapi I had it all planned out! 10 or 13 Dec nanti, I'll go to KL with Diyana and her family, then I'll ask sapa sapa to fetch me up there. Cujid ke, Cheja ke. haaaa.. *tapi depa nak tak nak ambek aku taktau laa* hmmm
p sendiri ja tak boleh? naik taxi. *oh wait, aku tak berani* I dah la comel. haaaa *eh perasan pulak.*
hmm NAK BALIK KL!
trash talked @ 9:29 PM
»8 days to war!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
okay, when I said war, I meant SPM. yes, peperiksaan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. I wasnt going to freak out at first, but to recall that I rarely read my books, IM FREAKING OUT! pffttt...
since I am definitely going to study on the eleventh hour, Im gonna make sure I REALLY STUDY and making sure what I studied, stuck in my brain -.-
see you on 6th of December. my last paper is on that day :) byeee ;)
*fyi: I start on the 5th of November.
trash talked @ 8:41 PM
Sunday, October 7, 2012
bukak PC, dengar lagu Baby Don't Cry-Daesung. then tiba tiba this appeared first thing on my timeline.
read and burst into tears. I really do love her. FIRST BEST FRIEND SINCE TADIKA kot! sapa tak sayang?! :( I miss you. and I want you to change and I want us to be friends again. Iloveyou :')
trash talked @ 5:10 PM
»(ex) best friend
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Dear (ex) bestfriend,if you look back, we have (had) been friends for A VERY LONG time now. I don't know what happen. truth be told, there are some times when I cant even stand you. the times when you don't give a shit about other's feeling. you may say that I hurt people's feeling too. but, if you're gonna say that. THINK BACK! I may hurt your feelings once in 2 minutes, but you hurt mine and other's once in every second. okay, that's harsh. -..-
hello and Assalamualaikum, Earth to you! people don't like you very much. I sometimes don't like you either. but when I look back at the times we spent since FOREVER, there are good times you know. you are my first best friend. we may not be best friends or even friends now, but..... huhhh..
I'm not typing all this to make you feel worse. but me and a few of our friends don't have the guts to talk and tell all this face-to-face. but here goes...
please PLEASE watch your mouth. and think first before you say something to people. for example.. you once called THEM "betina, gedik, perempuan, babi.." and some other stuffs. and you said, you don't like them and there is no point being nice to them because it's useless. well dear, since you're not hanging out with us again, HANG DUK DENGAN SAPA LAA NIIII?! *okay, sorry over reacted* I mean, you all get my point la kan?
huh, I actually have LOADS more to tell you, but I think I'll just stop here. there's no point Im typing sooo long if you're not going to change yourself. but if you do want to change, Alhamdullillah.
anyway, takecare. Goodluck for your SPM :)
trash talked @ 10:00 PM