»to: Sepet
Friday, March 22, 2013
assalamualaikum wbt.
this post is dedicated to my boyfriend, or ex. Im not exactly sure where we stand.
B, Imissyou by A LOT! I know you're busy with your exams. I sort of understand. I want you to succeed. but I also want our relationship to succeed. Im hanging by a thread here. I need you.
I know I've said this all the times but this time I meant it. I WANT TO CHANGE. and I need to. I'll try, in syaa Allah I'll change. gimme time. I also need your help.
I dont want our memories to fade away... I miss you. your laugh, your smile, your idiotic reaction to my stupidity, your hugs, your kisses, your 'leteran' *eventhough I sometimes hate it when you berleter*, hmm I miss your EVERYTHING b. | I miss every single thing about you. | this is by far the longest time spent w/out talking to you. I miss calling you before sleep and finally slept while texting. I miss checking my phone for you texts during work and replying it. now, it's just 'checking my phone'. no text from you whatsoever.
tadi awak text, I was over the moon. but as I open the text, it JUST says "congrats". my heart broke into a million pieces. patah seribu hatiku. I ran into the fitting room and cried for like 5 minutes, and then walked out with a fake smile. | faking smiles had been a habit now. so does crying before sleep. I end up crying to sleep and woke up with a panda eyes and swollen face. *sigh* |
itew rindu awak sesangat B. CC pun rindu awak. tiap malam kami nangis. CC nak papa dia balik. :'(
I actually dont know who to react now. I miss you so badly. I dont want to annoy you. but I guess, memang duk annoy pun. hmm Im sorry.
B, iloveyousoveryverymuch. I never thought something like this would happen. I really thought you'd be my last. I really want you to be my last, probably my forever. tapi tu laa, kita mampu plan je, Allah yang tentukan.
Im going insane thinking about you everyday and night. thinking that you will probably wont come back and you'll find someone much much better than me. this scares me to hell B. I dont want this! nauzubillah~ :'(
sepetku, please come back and dont leave me again. I'll change to a better person, in syaa Allah. please :'( Im begging you here B. pleaseeee :'(
*long sigh* that's all I can say for now. Iloveyou SO MUCH, takecare.
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satu masa bila aku biaq hang buat selama lamanya, hang akan tarik balik kata kata hang tadi. -Najmi Afif. 18.03.2013
sincerely,
Sabrina Johan
trash talked @ 1:29 AM
»my SPM result :)
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Assalamualaikum wbt :)
ANNYEEEEOOONNGGG...!!!
okay sayang sayang baby baby mucuk mucuk macam sekalian, result SPM 2012 dah keluar.
*drum rolls* I got 5A's 2C's 2D's :)
A : science & englishA- : bm, seni & mathsC+ : agama & sejarahD : ekonomi & addmaths
Alhamdulillah, itu sahaja... it's not much. but it's seriously UNEXPECTED! :)
Assalamualaikum :)
trash talked @ 2:00 PM
»keputusan SPM 2012
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
assalamualaikum wbt, annyeooonngg! :))
SPM dah selamat dijalankan pada 2012. esok, RESULT keluar!! ya Allah, ketaq taktau nak habaq! 2 3 hari sebelum tak rasa lagi kehangatan dia. harini baru rasa. ketaq bukan sebab apa. ketaq takut ada yang fail. hmm tak banyak A aku tak kisah sangat. kalau boleh nak B semua pun kira okay la. then ada C sikit sikit takpa. please no D's. :(
ya Allah ya Allah ya Allah! takut. hmm takut sangat :( takpaaa, exam buat buat dah. tak boleh nak kata apa, tawakal ja la yang mampu. betul dak? okayyy. *sigh*
tuu jaa nak luahkan kat sini. lama tak berbelog. maybe lepas ni akan berbelog balik, in syaa Allah. *amin*
kbyeeee
trash talked @ 12:00 PM
»I is sad. VERY!
Monday, March 11, 2013
hey peeps. Assalamualaikum and anyeoongg :)
I started working about 2 months ago. at first okay la. tapi lama lama, macam sedih je. cuti sehari ja, kerja 6 hari seminggu. kalau tidak dulu cuti hari sabtu, now tukar isnin. hmm dih dih. dah la tuu, aku probably kerja sampai bulan 6 or 8. this is more sad! the saddest part is aku dah jarang onling, hanging out with friends and family. the saddest of the saddest part is kalau mintak cuti, TOLAK GAJI!!! fishcake!
gila la macam ni punya sedih. hm hmm. aku kerja sebab nak duit, nak spend duit. tapi... duit aku habis tang makan ja. then beli barang keperluan sikit sikit. dah jarang dah nak mintak duit kat parents. unless kalau duit aku dah habis. tu pun dapat gaji aku bayar balik and bagi sikit duit kat daddy. daddy kan tak kerja, it's the least I can do lepas dia tolong hantar p balik kerja apa semua. mama pulak aku tolong dengan kemas rumah.
haaa, ni aku nak bebai sat. dah la rumah ni aku dengan mama ja yang kemas. aku cuti sehari ja. mama cuti jumaat sabtu. aku rasa macam lepas aku kemas pun tak ada effect. hmm. sedih aa. aku bukannya rajin sangat. tapi aku balik kerja lewat. adik adik aku ni pun sila la faham. hm.
duit aku sekarang tengah save nak beli phone baru. tapi nampak gaya macam lambat lagi ja. nak beli tu nak beli ni. tu tak kira duit yang nak spend enjoy dgn kawan kawan or family. ishhhh! nak teriaknya!
hmm sorry kerana membebai kat sini. eehhh wait, Im not sorry, I take it back. this is my blog. suka hati laki bini mak datin aku punya hati la aku nak buat apa pun.
KBYE!
trash talked @ 11:01 AM
»2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
hai, Assalamualaikum, annyeongg!
Happy New Year!
I think I may be 15 days late to wish that am I? hahaha anywayyy... Im officially school-less and kinda jobless. hehehe. actually I start working tomorrow morning.
I have nothing to say at this point. byee
trash talked @ 12:19 PM
»12.12.12
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Assalammualaikum, salam sejahtera and anyeongg!!!
Lamanya tak berbelog. Bersarang habis. Tikus lipas spider. Ee yuuckkks! Hahahha
Anywayyy, Im done with SPM. Which means, Im done with
school! Yeah babehhh, that’s right. No more teachers, no more prefects, no more
homework. Masuk U, lain cerita. But to tell you the truth, bosan woi duk rumah
-.- dah la paper last aku 6 Dec. Daddy and adik adik dah bertolak ke KL
seminggu awal. Im left alone with mama. Seminggu lebih jugak my BFF, Nurdinah
Nellisha @ Nelly duk rumah aku. Meneman. Haha. Anak angkat mama dah. Mama nel
sampai nak saman kami sebab curi nel. Hahaha. Isnin malam haritu kami kerja
dekat Giant, kira stok. 9pm sampai 9am. Besssttt! First time bekerja. Haha. Semalam
tu je laa. Awal bulan 1 nanti baru kerja tetap maybe. Sebab this year still
penuh, dengan budak PMR lagi.
Aiee, tu baru pembuka kata. Harini nak menulis tentang Wan Chempaka Raesha binti Wan Muzaffar. Siapa dia? She’s the new addition to Datuk Wan Mohd Hanafiah’s grandchildren. She’s the 12th.
Eee takkan tak comel Baby Raesha itew? Aummm... the last
time we all had a baby is when Arisa was born. That was 5 years ago. Now, itew
semua ada Baby Raesha and Arisa is no longer the youngest. Wan Chempaka Raesha
@ Baby Raesha is Aishu and Makshu’s first born. They got married last year,
remember? Baby Raesha was born on 12.12.12 @ 5.21pm.
Maybe petang nanti or esok pagi daddy gerak balik Alor
Setar, then esok malam mama and I wil gerak to Kuala Lumpuoqq. Hahaha. Yayerrrss!
*takkan tak ada sapa sapa nak tumpang gembira kott?* hahaha
Oh yes, Epi pun dapat cousin baru jugak. Zara Alesya. Born
on the same day as Baby Raesha. Cuma Baby Zara tua berapa jam sikit ja. Heee...
And and, my cat, Garfield pun gave birth to 4 little
kittens. On the same day too. The kittens are older than the babies. Hahahaha.
Okay, tu jaa. Will update for more, later. Bye byeee!
trash talked @ 2:35 PM
»Kuala Lumpur
Monday, November 19, 2012
Hi and Assalamualaikum :)
Im still not done with SPM. 3 and a half papers to go. Addmaths 1 and 2, Science 1 and 2, Seni 2, and Ekonomi Asas 1 and 2.
*long sigh*
I am actually here sebab I nak balik KL lepas exammm!!! my momma and daddy wont let me! :( macam macam sebab depa bagi. tapi I had it all planned out! 10 or 13 Dec nanti, I'll go to KL with Diyana and her family, then I'll ask sapa sapa to fetch me up there. Cujid ke, Cheja ke. haaaa.. *tapi depa nak tak nak ambek aku taktau laa* hmmm
p sendiri ja tak boleh? naik taxi. *oh wait, aku tak berani* I dah la comel. haaaa *eh perasan pulak.*
hmm NAK BALIK KL!
trash talked @ 9:29 PM
»8 days to war!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
okay, when I said war, I meant SPM. yes, peperiksaan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. I wasnt going to freak out at first, but to recall that I rarely read my books, IM FREAKING OUT! pffttt...
since I am definitely going to study on the eleventh hour, Im gonna make sure I REALLY STUDY and making sure what I studied, stuck in my brain -.-
see you on 6th of December. my last paper is on that day :) byeee ;)
*fyi: I start on the 5th of November.
trash talked @ 8:41 PM
»BFF, insyaAllah
Sunday, October 7, 2012
bukak PC, dengar lagu Baby Don't Cry-Daesung. then tiba tiba this appeared first thing on my timeline.
read and burst into tears. I really do love her. FIRST BEST FRIEND SINCE TADIKA kot! sapa tak sayang?! :( I miss you. and I want you to change and I want us to be friends again. Iloveyou :')
trash talked @ 5:10 PM
»(ex) best friend
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Dear (ex) bestfriend,if you look back, we have (had) been friends for A VERY LONG time now. I don't know what happen. truth be told, there are some times when I cant even stand you. the times when you don't give a shit about other's feeling. you may say that I hurt people's feeling too. but, if you're gonna say that. THINK BACK! I may hurt your feelings once in 2 minutes, but you hurt mine and other's once in every second. okay, that's harsh. -..-
hello and Assalamualaikum, Earth to you! people don't like you very much. I sometimes don't like you either. but when I look back at the times we spent since FOREVER, there are good times you know. you are my first best friend. we may not be best friends or even friends now, but..... huhhh..
I'm not typing all this to make you feel worse. but me and a few of our friends don't have the guts to talk and tell all this face-to-face. but here goes...
please PLEASE watch your mouth. and think first before you say something to people. for example.. you once called THEM "betina, gedik, perempuan, babi.." and some other stuffs. and you said, you don't like them and there is no point being nice to them because it's useless. well dear, since you're not hanging out with us again, HANG DUK DENGAN SAPA LAA NIIII?! *okay, sorry over reacted* I mean, you all get my point la kan?
huh, I actually have LOADS more to tell you, but I think I'll just stop here. there's no point Im typing sooo long if you're not going to change yourself. but if you do want to change, Alhamdullillah.
anyway, takecare. Goodluck for your SPM :)
trash talked @ 10:00 PM
»Imma VIP and Blackjack!
Friday, October 5, 2012
okay, as you know, I have NEVER EVER EVER like K-POP! hahaha.
last year tengah tengok MTV. then ada MTV Icons. Big Bang ada. then tengok p la. macam okay. then ada lagu Haru Haru. best kot. bila online ja duk dengaq lagu tu. then haru haru (day by day) aku macam dah minat Big Bang. sulu minat Big Bang dengan SHINee. then stop KPOP sat. this year, minat balik. MINAT GILA pulak tu.! haha I've declared myself as a VIP! hahaha.
tapi aku minat Big Bang and 2NE1 sahaja. and YG Family laa. yang lain, sorry tak layan :) so, jangan cakap KPOP dengan aku. hahaha Big Bang dengan 2NE1 boleh :)))
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| GD TOP Seungri Taeyang Daesung |
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| BOYFRIENDS! |
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| Dong Young-bae @ Taeyang, saranghaeeee! |
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| sisters!!! |
trash talked @ 11:15 AM
»The Buttons
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
dear Buttonese, lets re-group. PLEASE :(
trash talked @ 9:46 PM
»LOL
Friday, September 28, 2012
I mean seriously do you see his face as BUDAK YANG BERSEKOLAH AGAMA since tadika sampai Form 5? I dont. I seriously, DONT. hahaha. time kawan dengan dia, baru dia cerita zaman persekolahan dia tu, aku ni terkejut biawak kot. memang nak gelak, gelak terkejut. haha. tapi awal awal percaya tak percaya la jugak. mai lama lama, memang aku tak percaya. haha. seriously, perangai tak serupa bikin. hahaha
takpalah. kalau dah jodoh nak buat macam mana kan? hahaa. doakan je lah kebahagiaan kami.
dah sebelum aku start merapu lagi, BYE
trash talked @ 7:40 PM
»sisters
Assalamualaikum. :)
Im going to talk about 4SS1 (2011) and 5SS1 (2012). we've been together for about 2 years now. dah macam sisters dah. dah masak dengan perangai masing masing.
last year, kelas kami was probably class yang paling TAK ADA KERJASAMA. nak bergaduh je antara satu puak dengan satu puak yang lain. ada puak yang pandai, malas, nakal, baik, semua ada. duduk pulak bergeng geng. then ada kes kecurian duit kelas sampai RM 500+. macam macam lah.
awal tahun ni. ada jugak lah yang tak berapa nak baik. then semakin hari, semakin sayang lah katakan. semua bekerjasama. semua dah jadi satu geng. kalau tak buat homework ja, semua pakat diam.
yang bestnya, bising tak mau dah. kalau dulu, satu puak bising ja, mau kena maki dah. bukan apa. we came from various classes. ada kelas B (biasa), ada kelas K (khas). anyway, I dont recall kami start berbaik semua bila. tapi sekarang memang best. bergelak ketawa, bersedih bersama. tapi lepas trial ni, sepatutnya semakin stress. tapi kelas kami tak pun. bergelak macam sewel dah. bila buat kerja je diam. :)
seriously, I'll miss them. ada certain time that I may hate them. tapi I'll miss them for sure. masing masing ada cara dan gaya masing masing. setakat ni, I dont have their pictures. tapi yang ni ja yang ada. ni pun time Teacher's Day hari tu.
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| our PK Pentadbiran :) |
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| this is our Monitor, Sahira (seherot) and her assistant, Nabilah (burn). <33 |
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| our dearest Principal :) |
I am going to stop here before I start bursting into tears :')
dear 5SS1 girls, I may not say this before, but I love you. I seriously do. and I guess, we all have different ways of showing it :)
trash talked @ 3:05 PM
»cooking is my passion
Monday, September 17, 2012
Assalamualaikum :)
hey, did I ever tell you how I love cooking? I think it runs in the family. haha. you see, my arwah moyang (my nen's parents) are chefs from Thailand. they migrated in Kedah to serve the Sultan at that time. they had been married as Siamese, then when they done serving the Sultan, they moved to KL and live there. I dont recall whether they had converted to Islam before or after they moved to KL. but anyhow, my Nen is an excelent mentor. she took care of me since I was 2 days old until 11 years old. then she had to move to KL because she is sick. but not sick, sick. she just has pains in the bones, her knee, etc etc. trust me, if you met her, you wont believe how old she is. their cooking skills is passed down to my dad. the minute he knew I love to cook, he thought me everything. he would scold me is I did something incorrect. I think his famous dish is spaghetti. whenever people are coming to my house, he would serve them spaghetti, and I would be the coolie -.-
on my mum's side. my tok, tokmama and everyone la love to cook. everyone have their own special dish. so, yeah. Im gonna stop writing now. kbye
trash talked @ 9:20 AM
»I'm fragile
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
hey there, it's been awhile but emm...
anywayyy. I just wanna open up now. um here's the thing, I trust my boyfriend. but sometimes, Im just I dont know. I just cant seem to accept the fact that he spends 8 out of 12 months with her! I know they barely spoken to each other. but I think most of the girls reading this would understand me.
you guys practically see each other every week! when I can just see you during raya or semester break. I cant stop you from seeing her nor hanging out with your friends. but the least you can do is just tell me that she's also there. you may say that I'll get hurt if you do so. but it hurts even more when I found out myself. to see that all these while you went here or there, she had been tagging along too.
Im a girl, but mostly, Im fragile. you should know by now. I purposely hurt you so that you feel what I felt that you unpurposely hurt me. huh.
I seriously dont like to argue with you. I know you'll win. I've never won our arguments. and if I did, I now you deliberately want me to win so I'll shut up.
oh and by the way, I cant help myself but to think negatively when you're not picking up the phone when I call or replying my text. I tried to think positively at first but after a while, the negative thoughts haunt me like hell! all the 'what if's' and stuffs.
huh, IDK. bye
trash talked @ 8:50 PM
»double T
Thursday, August 16, 2012
hi there! long time no write huh? teeheee, sorry. I've been busy. Im more to Twitter and Tumblr. I have bunch to write though. it's just that, I dont what to write when Im in front of the laptop. Im sorry. do follow me on Twitter and Tumblr. :) kbyee
ps: click the pictures to go to my Twitter and Tumblr
Twitter
Tumblr
trash talked @ 11:46 AM
»PLKN
Sunday, July 29, 2012
okay. first of all, I miss you blog. I've neglected you for tha past 5 weeks. sorry.
second. see the picture above? its the Malaysian National Service. also known as Program Latihan Khidmat Negara (PLKN). these few words that you might hear may sound weird coming from my mouth. but I AM SAD THAT I DID NOT GET IN. yes, you read well. I DID NOT GET IN. seriously, I've been waiting for the results to come out and it breaks my heart to know that AKU TAK DAPAT HOI!
daddy is trying to tulis surat or kawan dia nak tolong ke apa tah so that I can go. please pray for me. I do really wanna go. okay, byeee
trash talked @ 11:13 PM
»annoyed
Thursday, June 21, 2012
at school. I ran here and there. got stressed up with teachers and homeworks and studies and friends and stuff.
at home. I do the chores. when Im upstairs, the called me down. when Im downstairs, they ask me to go up. I got nagged for no doing my chores. I got nagged for the stuffs my siblings did. I got nagged for not studying, which Im very VERY fucked up because when I studied, they arent around to see me. so when they start nagging, they tend to say "all I see is you infront of the computer and TV. I dont see you studying."
well, that's because I never studied in front of you. cause when I do, you'd say Im a show off. and I studied just so you can see me studying. then you nagged for my bloody result which are freaking stupid (my result that is).
I studied okay. you may not see it. and my results arent showing it either. Im stupid, I know. you dont have to tell me Im stupid. neither does my BELOVED principle whom I love so much. I tried to act as 'dont care' as possible. but Im a human being. Im not perfect. I cant do all the things you ask. I tried to. but I cant. dont put your expectation too high.
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oh and for my dear deary classmates, schoolmates, mates etc, Im done being nice to all of you. I helped you even though you dont need helping. I lend my hands to you even though your hands are empty. but when my hands are full. I ask for your help, it doesnt kill to help back! Im not looking for repayment. I can do things by myself. but once a year when I ask for your help, does it kill you? or am I asking too much? oh bytheway, I dont like people too assume MY STUFF IS YOUR STUFF. if you want to borrow my stuff, ASK. then put it back where it belongs. and about my 'bekal' that my daddy sent. it is for ME. I dont mind sharing. but sometimes, would you atleast think about the owner of the food? I mean, you people ate the 'lauk' and left me the 'nasi kosong' -.-
again people, I just hope you'll be more considerate. I dont mind. really, I DONT. but sometimes I DO.
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Im sorry, Im just soooooo fucked up. Im feeling a bit better now.
trash talked @ 11:16 PM
»I love myself
Sunday, June 17, 2012
hey peeps :)
just so you know, I've deactivated my Facebook account. now, Im more to Twitter and Tumblr. do follow!
blog, update jugak tapi kalau post panjang panjang laa. kalau tak, I'll go to the double T :) kbyee
trash talked @ 12:45 PM
